WOW, my life is soo screwed up, my parents just got into a divorce, I don't talk to my dad, my mom met someone, and they just love eachother, they are already talking about getting married in six months, my mom and sister fight all the time ( they yell scream call eachother every name in the book) the last two days I have somehow ended up in their fights ( I try my hardest to stay out, but the last two nights I ended up in them) then I end up fighting with both of them. there are eight kids in my family, I am the oldest ( 17) which means more responsibility for me, there is a lot of drama at the place that I work, fights, romances, ect. ( I work at the local A&W) so I go to work and come home to more stress. my sister is constantly saying she hates our family, she wants to live with her dad but she never goes and stays full time with him, my sister Liz, and I use to be soo close we could tell eachother anything, Our dad was abusive when he lived here, and that I think helped us bond, we used to spend hours, plotting to run away, or get rid of him, and other stuff, now she thinks the world of him because he has become the " disnyland dad" and he isn't abusive anymore...yet. yesterday the babysitter was sick and knowone could watch the two youngest kids ( they are to young to go to school) and I had a half hour before I had to be to work, ( I ride my bike to work) it takes about a half an hour to get there:( so my mom asked her bosses if she couls take the day off, and she came home, I felt like she was mad at me, and I felt very bad, so I gave her my gift card ( it had 25 bucks on it). I was 20 minutes late... I work really hard at work, If i work in the morning, I'm th only person there for two hours and we have three lists of things to get done, I get them all done except for one thing ( everyone else only gets one list done, cause they don't want to do all the work) I know this cause they told me, well there is some one there who doesn't like me, and I leave her one thing to do, and she flips oput on me, most of us are young under 23, and she is forty, and she is crazy, even one of the bosses thinks so, she flips out all the time on us. anyway...I always clean the house for my mom, ( its messy alot, with eight kids who don't do crap!) and I'm always babysitting,if its my day off I babysit, I babysit before I go to work ( before the babysitter comes and picks them up) the babysitter is my 30 year old cousin, my mom and her disagree on alot of things, and I get to hear both ends of it, ( they both talk about their side of the fight to me.

right know I get my own room, and two of my sisters share another room, and the rest share a huge family room/den, turned into a bedroom, and the two little one are in my moms room, but now this guy my mom met, he is really nice but, they are talking about renting a place in the next town over, where he lives, and it might not allow animals, my mom is soo in love with this guy, that I think she would make me get rid of my animals ( I have tywo dogs and three gliders) and I probably won't get my own room, because it sounds like he will be paying for at least half of the rent. ( I really need my own room, its the cleanest place in the house and I go there every chance I get to try and relax), I'm sorry I'm jumping all over the page and going from One thing to the next, but I'm verry upset and stressed.
I have diabetes, type one ( with the shots) and my blood has been up in the 3 and 4 hundreds, thats really bad.

I try to be a good person, I don't drink, smoke or do drugs, I'm not the typical teenager, I don't give a crap about new clothes or brands, ( I shop on ebay or at garage sales, thats my own choice), I'm homeschooled ( thats my chioce also) I help my mom out the best I can, by watching the kids, cleaning up the house, fixing things, buying her things ( I bought her a brand new dishwasher about six months ago, cause hers broke and she couldn't afford a new one) I also helped her out with some of the bills a few months ago. but sometimes she gets mad at me for little things, like today she asked if I could get cought up on the laundry, its my day off and the babysitter is still sicvk so I'm watching my two siblings ( a fou year old) and a year old , he is crawling, so its hard to make sure he doesn't get anything in his mouth. anyways I got most of the laundry folded, ( there was about six big baskets of clothes) but I only got one load started ( I kept forgetting to start them) nand she got mad at me, she said she was very disapointed. It really hurts me when she get disapointed or mad at me cause I try really hard.

I'm sorry I'll stop now, Its just I feel sooo stressed, and the thought of moving and having to get rid of my animals, makes me very sad, I used to have four dogs, but had to get rid of two, and then oine of them died, so I got another one, so thats how I have two, but the thought of loosing them makes me want to die, Ive already decided that if that happens I'm going to kill myself, cause life is not worth living without my animals, they are the only reason I keep on living.

I'm sorry, this is soo long and messed up.

 

acquila
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hello, I am 18, still living with my mom ( strying to save so I can move out) I work as a busser/waitress, sometimes 30 hrs a week sometimes 10...depends on the week. I have 3 dogs, two Golden retrievers and a Goldendoodle ( Golden/Poodle mix) a cat who I bottle fed since week one. and now a Sugar glider joey! you will almost always see me with one of my pets, they are like a security blanket, and yes I am aware that many people think i'm weird cause Im always with a pet, but I don't care! send me an e-mail! tell me about you and your pets, if your going through a hard time and want to talk just e-mail...I'm a good listener! Hope to talk to you soon!

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