This is easily one of the worst days of my life. I lost Kiki...one of my original baby girls, 3 and 1/2 years old, Maddox's mom. The worst part is, I don't have a clue how.

I went into their room this morning because that's where I keep my cabinet with all my work items inside. I opened it to get a folder out and I saw one of the gliders wedged in between a plastic bin and the side of the cabinet, belly down. My heart just dropped. She was so wedged, I had to remove the bin from the cabinet to be able to get her. As soon as I picked her up, I knew it was her. She was still breathing..barely..and she was pretty cold. I immediately wrapped her in some fleece and grabbed the water bottle to see if she would drink anything. I couldn't get her to open her mouth. I grabbed one of the syringes and got some pedialyte and tried that way too and her mouth was locked shut. I checked her over really quick and called Rob to come take me to the vet so I wouldn't have to put her down for anything. I think maybe she broke her back or legs somehow? Her toes were dark purple. When I first picked her up, she grabbed onto my hand with her hands but never did move her feet. I thought she was starting to warm up. Her nose was whitish at first and was starting to get a little pink so I really thought if I got her to the vet fast enough, maybe they could do something but she didn't even make it until my husband got here. I feel so sick.

I cannot figure out how this happened. I took a picture of the plastic bin she got stuck next to and the outside of the cabinet. The back of the cabinet is flush against the wall. There is no way under as it sits flush against the floor as well. That's the reason we even got those cabinets for that room. She literally had to have gotten the door open somehow and then shut herself in. There was some pee in there so it looked like she had played around a little first before trying to get out. I was in that cabinet for something else last night and she was not there then. I was in there before they were all even awake.






For those that don't know, I let all of them out all night in their room. The cabinets, bookshelf and their cage are the only things in the room. They've pretty much had this room for 2 years. I hate the thought of not letting the rest of them out at night. My husband suggested the baby locks that you put through the handles so the doors can't be opened so that will be my next move for sure. I seriously just feel so sick to my stomach. She had to have suffered and probably for hours and hours.

Meanwhile, I don't know what to do with her. I don't want to even put her down and keep checking her "just in case".

When I lost Puff Daddy, the vet took care of him and I knew from the necropsy that he had internal organ disease that I had no control over since he was a rescue. As much as that hurt, it doesn't touch what I'm feeling right now and at least I knew "why". Even when we put our lab down last summer, the vet handled that as well and we knew "why". I feel like I'm one of those little kids in the movies that keeps trying to get their kitten or puppy to wake up. My brain knows she won't but I don't know. I don't understand. I always feel so bad for other people when I see them post about accidents, but I tell you what...it has a whole new meaning now.

http://www.sugarglider.com/glidergossip/photo_album_view.asp?cname=Kiki&mid=2997&cid=712

Oh Kylah, I'm so sorry. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you are feeling. I know you are hurting pretty bad because you are one of the best suggie mommys. R.I.P. little Kiki and glide free over the rainbow bridge.

I'm so sorry. I can't stand hearing about such precious animals losing their lives before their time.

((hugs))

Kylah....my heart is BREAKING for you right now...you truly ARE one of the best suggie moms out there, please don't beat yourself up over it. RIP little Kiki...Atleast she is now with Puff Daddy, gliding around the rainbow bridge.

sorry about kiki, my heart breaks for you.

I'm soooo sorry for your loss...although it seems unbearable, this too shall pass. You have been so devoted and caring to your suggies and I'm sure Kiki is looking down on you and is thankful for the life she got to share with you!! Please do not blame yourself...glide free little Kiki, RIP sweet girl!!!

I'm so sorry to read this. :(
Sorry for your loss.

OMG, Kylah. I dont even know what to say. I wish I could give you a huge hug. Im so sorry.

So sorry Kylah. This is just so sad... Our condolences

I’m so sorry for your loss! It sounds like a nightmare!
Kiki was so cute! I love the way she always carried her tail in the air. I know she will be missed.

I am so so sorry Kylah. My heart breaks for you. She knows how loved she was a what a great life you gave her. I too wish I could give you a big hug.

RIP Kiki glide free little one.

im soo sorry to hear about your loss my prayers are with you...Glide free over the Rainbow Bridge little one!

Kylah, I'm so sorry. She was such a happy girl. Glide free, little Kiki.

God, Kylah... I don't know what to say, sweetie. I'm so sorry. Words can't describe how bad I feel for you right now.

I'm so sorry to here this, Kylah. I know how painful it must be. Glide free, little girl!

I am so sorry rest in peace Kiki.

Kylah, so very sorry to hear this...

I think we found how she got in there. The cabinet is 6 feet tall so I can't see the top but they all play up there all the time. I even have a braided fleece rope hung from the ceiling so they could get up there! I had my husband thoroughly check the cabinet for any way in and he felt on top that the top of the cabinet didn't quite close all the way and there was a small gap he said she could have stuck and arm or her nose in and got it open. Because of that, I checked all the shelves and she had a blast in there for a while. She left her mark everywhere...from the top shelf (which she would NEVER be able to access from anywhere but the top) to the bottom, where I found her.

Now that I know, I REALLY feel sick to my stomach. I'm barely over 5 feet tall and have never once seen the top of that cabinet. I can't believe no one followed her in there but then again, I'm sure it immediately closed behind her. She had to either have fallen from up high or was just simply trying to find a way out. No matter what, it's horrible and she suffered. There's no sugar coating that.

Kylah -- my heart truly breaks for you. I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling.

I am not really sure what else to say except you are always the first one to tell people NOT to beat themselves up about accidents like this (I could search and list threads but you know it's the truth)
so now it is time that you have to remember your own advice. We can't change what has already happened. Correct what you can and hold your head high -- Kiki had a wonderful life with you and her colony and YOU KNOW that you are a wonderful loving glider mommy!

Prayers, hugs & lots of love,
Karen, Gizmo, Roo, Mr Jingles & Izzy

Awww what a bummer. Sorry to hear that

So sorry for your loss, R.I.P. Kiki.

Oh girl, my every pore just bleeds for you. I am so very very sorry. Poor baby KiKi. I just hate this for you and I know how you feel luv. I just hate that something so tiny can have such a big place in our hearts. I wouldn't trade them for anything but anytime one dies, I know you just die a little with it. Such tiny guys bring so much joy into our lives. I feel just sick for you. PLease don't blame yourself. It was truly a freak of nature accident!

Oh gosh, I just saw this... I'm so sorry about Kiki... It was an accident and you shouldn't blame yourself...

Just know we are all here for you *hugs*

Oh my heart is breaking for you. I am so so sorry.

I am wrapping my arms around you from Delaware. I know that Kiki is playing in Heaven with all the other suggies. There will be a field of yoggie trees and a mealworm sea as far as the eye can reach.

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Originally posted by Gizmo-n-Roos Mommy

Kylah -- my heart truly breaks for you. I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling.

I am not really sure what else to say except you are always the first one to tell people NOT to beat themselves up about accidents like this (I could search and list threads but you know it's the truth)
so now it is time that you have to remember your own advice. We can't change what has already happened. Correct what you can and hold your head high -- Kiki had a wonderful life with you and her colony and YOU KNOW that you are a wonderful loving glider mommy!

Prayers, hugs & lots of love,
Karen, Gizmo, Roo, Mr Jingles & Izzy

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Exactly. Very much a ditto, hon.

We all know there are no words for this kind of stuff... but we are all heart broken with you. What a sweet little girl you had, but she has somewhere else to go now. I'm so sorry for your loss

One thing I'm not is dramatic. What I AM, is a logical and realistic person. However, I am having a very, very, very hard time dealing with this. I can't bear to go in that room even...very unlike me and I'm confusing myself. Thank God I'm in Denver for the weekend w/ Taylor for her dance convention. I was going stir crazy in that house and my husband is taking care of them for the weekend. I've never EVER been so distraught over the loss of a pet. As much as I truly appreciate all of your words and sentiments, I'm not going to lie...they don't help. I just know at least you all understand a little more than anyone else and not think I'm out of my mind. Just venting "out loud", I guess. :/ I CANNOT get the image of how I found her out of my head and it makes me nauseous. Literally. I know it will take time but I can't close my eyes without seeing her and watching her struggle to live. I think it would have been much different if I had just found her some other way. I could go on and on and even I feel I'm being overly dramatic. I'm not looking for advice or "words of encouragement". I just needed to get it out, so no words needed.

I am so sorry Kylah. I am so sorry you lost your baby. Hugs to you!